sucks,
i running fever and flu.
this time round, better
37.9d cant drop lower.
tsk tsk.
last fri, kena drench in the rain with mindy after sch.
this maybe the reason why.
still tinking if i should go sch tml...
i skipped last week.
jap faci, i got this feeling he will gimmi lots of As.
but i dunno.
worst still, tml there's temperature taking.
sure kena.
theres 3 scenario:
1. ask to go home
2. ask to go clinic and verify i have got no swineflu of h1n1
3.half way go off.





sometimes i really hate myself.
probably mood swing is getting out of hand this week.
some flashbacks can be detrimental,
however,
majority are happy ones.
well,
at least it serve as an console to me?
now, i see some side effects of forcing myself for this 1 1/2 mths.
i dun care, i will continue to force myself.
this is wat i can do.
i'm pretty proud that i can force myself not sms/call tou,
even if i do, there's no point.
tell him i miss him? or other stuffs which i knw i shouldnt say.
lets not make things difficult for him.
since i'm a strong woman which he din often see my fragile side.
might as well continue.
i cant give him anything, i shall let other ppl give him.
its easy to say,
trust me, takes mths or maybe years.






不争取并不代表弃权。
早以成定局只好逼自己接受。