i'm no longer a spoilt brat.
i dun love lv anymore.
lv wun make me happy, but only u will.
money cant use to buy my happiness.

lesser complain more work done,
lesser black face more happy face.

not 娇生惯养anymore.
when u turn around, u will see that i'm different.



when i see my jiujiu wife and him,
i'm speechless.
i dunno how to express my feeling,
i'm happy for me, on the other hand ,jealousy strikes me.
i dunno wats this feeling call.
but sometimes its bearable.
espeically when they hold each other hand or call 'lao po, lao gong'
i hold it there because i knw if i fall, nobody will help me up.
or should i say, nobody can help me up.
thus, i cant afford to fall.
and i'm not so stupid to give myself a chncae to fall.
useless otherwise. unless he's ready for me to fall.
i struggle to made such decision, i never expect any in return.
i force myself to be happy everyday, jus to make ppl around me feel better.
i still get sad often, but, not tt being lost feeling.



had a talk with xiuzhen, she has been encouraging me like nana.
i jus dunno how to talk to them.
tinking that this is a very disgrace issue.
i'm such a failure to express.
even to my beloved ones.

i'm not worth it.
i will be standing at the same old spot watching over him.
he deserve better !